AAaaaand I'm back...

So, It has definitely been a while.

To all of you, thank you for your patience... There has been so much going on, and the treatments are definitely starting to take their negative toll on my body, which is leaving me with less and less energy, and less and less desire to do anything other than lay around and hurt.

Tomorrow will leave me with only 12 more doses of radiation to do. I can't believe how fast these first 3 weeks have gone.

When I first walked into this, wide eyed like a deer in headlights, unsure, and terrified, I expected that the next 6 weeks were going to be the longest in my life.


I am happy to say that the journey thus far has not been as horrible as I expected.
The pain is ... well, it hurts. I think it would be a little more tolerable if it were one kind of pain, but there are so many different things that hurt. They've got me on astronomical amounts of pain medication, which in the beginning were low doses that only kind of helped. Now, with the amounts I'm on, I am finally starting to get some REAL pain relief. I am definitely a little doped-up 24/7 , but I guess that's the way it has to be for now.

I'm a little worried that as the radiation does it's damage over the next two weeks, the pain is going to get worse. But I just keep telling myself "Two weeks left, Two weeks left."  I've come this far, I can push on through.

I'm sorry this isn't the most informative of posts, but the meds are kickin in, and its getting really hard to think.
But i wanted to make sure i got SOMETHING up, so you didn't think I'd forgotten about my readers. I PROMISE there will be more to come SOON.

Take care,
Marcus.