To all who read,
My name is Mark. I am 29 years old, and live in British Columbia, Canada.
In 19 days, I would have marked my first anniversary being cancer free. However, this past Friday, I was informed that I will not be making that celebration, as my cancer has returned.
I have already beat this cancer once, so I have high hopes, a positive attitude, and motivation to fight.
That being said, I am also pretty well-educated on the type of cancer I have, and I am aware that it's return drastically decreases my chances. However, I have had a life full of "against-all-odds" moments, and have always come out on top.
When I got my first diagnosis, I can remember having so many questions. and every time I got one of those questions answered, it only brought out another hundred questions I hadn't even thought of yet. For me, knowledge and foresight was absolute power. I figured if I knew what to expect, than I was already on the road to recovery before I'd begun the fight.
Now, with it returning, I am again filled with so many questions...so much fear of the unknown...
I feel exactly like I did the first time.
How is it, that with all the questions I've already had answered, all the experiences I've gained with the first fight, and all the research I have done, that I still feel like I have no idea what is going on? or what's to come?
So I've decided that no matter how this fight goes, I want it to be more than just another "experience" under my belt. I want to try and use it to help someone else.
I want to start documenting this, from the get go, I'll be recording video entries when I can, and possible write-ups such as this. and I'd like to put it all into one place where people in my position can access it, and maybe they too will be able to go into their own fight feeling like they have a "heads-up" on things.
If I can help but one person feel a little less unsure, scared, or alone in their fight, then I have accomplished my goal with this blog. I'm sure that as things go, I'm sure there will be changes to this page, the layout, and maybe even changes to what I hope to achieve through this outlet.
I'm usually pretty keen on all things internet/computer related, but admittedly have no idea what I'm doing here so I apologize in advance if this seems at all amateur or akward.
God Bless you, I send prayers for the strength you'll need to fight and the courage you already show. I knew several people that had cancer and one had it return and he at first said he was not going to fight it with chemo or radiation cause he was the hardest thing he went threw. Nobody now's how hard chemo and just being scared of the unknown is besides you going threw it. Unimaginable to me I praise you for your courage and compassion to want to help others going threw what you are. Remarkable you are even thinking of others in your position. Can I ask what type of Cancer you have? Sending you prayers..
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